After 9/11 George W Bush promised his people that he would protect them and he did. Many would say that his men dug Saddam Hussain out of his grave and killed him again for vested interests, he finished countries altogether in search of Ladin but sent a message across to the whole world, loud and clear 'You cannot attack United States of America' since then fortunately America has not faced any terror attack. The President kept his word and Americans are living fearlessly.

Our Prime Minister can neither save others nor his own people. Politicians like Shivraj Patil, R R Patil and Vilasrao Deshmukh have redefined the word promise. 'Promise' in their dictionary means: Say anything that comes to your mind to make people happy and then forget about it.

The list of the cities attacked in India is endless-- Mumbai, Delhi, Jaipur, Malegaon, Bangalore, Ahemdabad and all of Kashmir. But the recent attack in Mumbai taught us the real meaning of the word Terror. All I can say is THEY HAVE GUTS!

Earlier terrorists used to plant bombs and vanish into the crowds. But this time they proved that they have no fear. They were on a killing spree till the last minute out in the open. I would not even like to share the horrid stories that I have heard from some survivors.

Their guts have changed the way we live in this city. I came home after two days of round the clock terror coverage and the first thing I did was check my house. Yes for the first time I was scared, I don't know when and how will this fear go.

What about the people who have lost their loved ones -- how will they sleep peacefully? Will the survivors ever get this horrid experience out of their system? How will one look at the Oberoi and the Taj after this?

I was outside the Oberoi on the first night when terrorists were inside the hotel killing innocent people. I interviewed some people who had narrowly escaped and they said that there were at least 15 terrorists inside. From these 15, 3 or 4 were gunned down but where did the rest of the terrorists go?

If I take a boat and go out with my friends into the sea I will be caught within minutes. How did the terrorists dock at our shores, that too with so much ammunition? If I try and take one pistol with me inside Taj or Oberoi I will be caught at the gate, how did the terrorists take ten AK56 guns and grenades inside? I don't think all this is possible without significant help from within the city.

I don't even know who will answer these questions. Don't think anyone will. Some say that peace protests and candle march is no solution but what can people do, it's just a way of showing that they care. It may not have any kind of constructive output but If they could I am sure they would belt the politicians outside Taj but they can't.

Now we know calls were made to Pakistan from the mobile phones of the terrorists but now what are we doing about it? We know not just Dawood Ibrahim but Anees and Tiger Memon are living a lavish life in Pakistan, so what's our administration doing about it? The fact is if my country was as powerful as America and if our president was Bush then they would have the same fate as Saddam Hussain. Though I don't think what George W Bush did was right but at least he is better than our leaders who are doing nothing! For the longest time I hated George W Bush, his thoughts and theories but is our Prime Minster doing any better by not protecting his own people. We fear which city will be attacked next and how?

Ratan Tata can give this country the best hotel but sadly the government cannot guarantee if you will walk alive from there. Many can afford a stay in these hotels but there is no guarantee if you will live till the end of your stay however long that may be. Ratan Tata can try to make sure each of us in this country owns a car but some states can't give him the land to manufacture it in and the government can't give you good roads to drive it on. What can the government give us then?

Paying tax is in this country is like Neki Kar Darya Me Daal -- pay tax but don't expect any returns. It's nice to see that at least some politicians have lost their jobs and the next lot coming is aware that they can't behave like them.

I have a journalist friend is Kashmir who used to tell me stories of how at times they have to duck bullets outside their homes and I used to be amazed because in Mumbai I didn't even know what a gunshot sounded like. Yesterday he called me and said now there is not much difference between our lives.

Don't want to end on a happy note like I usually do because for now there is no reason to be happy. I am angry and I would like everyone to know that!