From Mamma's girl to Daddy's girl!
Ok, I have been missing for a long time. I have been busy getting my other baby on its feet! Not a baby literally, but my own media production house in place. But let me tell you the feeling's entirely the same. You conceive it, nurture it, make sure it grows well, keep it away from problems and then slowly and gradually it starts holding up on its own. From baby steps, it starts taking giant leaps and while you always have an eye on it, it carves out its own identity from being just an extension of you.
And when it takes the first step, in this case when it is up for public viewing and is appreciated, you feel as proud and scared as you were the first time when your baby took its first steps. You try to shield it from the harsh public glare and hope that the world will be kind to it. While there will be many more milestones, the first will always remain special and close to your heart.
I must mention that while I was busy and pre-occupied with the minutest of details of my professional life, my daughter who never left my mind grew up quietly. I went out of town, stayed up days and nights shooting, saw her only while she slept and felt guilty as hell as I tried to balance my time with her. But not once did she complain or throw a tantrum. She quietly just became her daddy's girl. From being a complete mamma's girl she surprised me by transitioning to finding solace in papa's arms. And papa was equally surprised too.
While my hubby and I have always feared that she wouldn't manage without me, Sia proved us both wrong. She not only managed, she excelled at it. She displayed a maturity worthy of a medal, understanding in her own way that sometimes Papa has to work for months at a stretch and sometimes mamma has to. It's amazing how kids absorb so much from you. And when my work of art went on air, she saw it and came up to me and said, "Good work Mamma, it's very nice." This comment was worth more than a thousand awards put together.
She has grown up much as I hate to admit to myself. She doesn't come to me that often with playing taking up most of her time. She does her own chores, well most of them. Her eyes don't hunt for me all the time, nor does she now follow me to the bathroom. But yes when night falls and the stars twinkle, she tiptoes to me asking to be carried, telling me to tell her a story and then as her eyes droop heavy with sleep, she crushes me with a hug which makes up for all her being away the entire day. It is then that I realise that she isn't growing up. She is and will always remain my little baby, my first born - special and closest to my heart. She may need me less as the days pass by but need me she will always, as I need and all of us need our mothers even today.
Till my next post. I promise it will be soon. You can write to me at http://mammamania.in.
More about Shabia Ravi Walia
Shabia Ravi Walia is a media professional for the past 15 years. Dabbling in production, creative direction and writing, she has equal experience in both genres of fiction and non fiction. Over the years she has worked on various reputed non fiction shows like Surabhi and The Good Food Guide for Siddharth Kak, Movers and Shakers on Sony TV and well known fiction shows like Siddhanth, Kumkum, Ek thi Rajkumari, Mile Jab Hum Tum etc. She was amongst the core team who launched Sahara Samay in Mumbai for Sahara Television.
She satiates her love for writing by providing content for websites, copywriting for corporate films and penning down short skits and poems.
Currently Shabia works in the content division of a leading television channel. However her biggest achievement till date as considered by her, is the birth of her baby Sia and penning down the experiences associated with it in the form of her bestselling book 'Mamma Mania.' When Shabia is not rustling up stories, she loves to whip up a storm in the kitchen or put on her dancing shoes and burn the dance floor. Shabia lives in Mumbai with her husband Ravi and daughter Sia and is already planning her 2nd book.